Whoa. This shit is starting to get real.
8 weeks. Baby is the size of a kidney bean and is developing hands, feet, eyelids, a brain, breathing passages - holy crap there's a baby in my belly! I was reading ahead last night (which they tell you not to do, but it was only like 12 hours ahead, so I'm sure it's okay) and it started to come over me - this is really happening. There's a floating person-to-be inside me that's growing at a ridiculous pace and will be ready to come out and meet us all in just a few more months. Wow. I've been so focused on not getting too emotionally attached, not getting my hopes up...this is wild.
Guys? I'm gonna be a Momma!
Of course, I have to follow that with a disclaimer - I haven't seen a doctor yet. I don't know that everything is fine and dandy. I'm assuming. I'm speaking from a place of hope. Fingers crossed I won't have to print any retractions, you feel me?
Eight weeks. Two months down, seven and a half (ish) to go.
Of course, the 8 week update on Baby Center has to bring up screenings and testings - all the different ways medical science can scare the shit out of you about what could possibly go wrong and result in you not having a healthy happy baby in your arms at the end of the journey. My knee-jerk reaction is to ignore it all, skip it all, and just let nature take its course and see how things end up. Surely everything will be fine, right? I asked Jimi how he feels - he's pretty terrified of the idea of having a baby that isn't "perfect". Having a Down Syndrome baby is something he worries about and doesn't want to have to face. He views screenings and tests as a way to arm ourselves with all the necessary information so we can be prepared if something is wrong. I worry about the stress that would be caused from false/real positives. I am afraid of learning something is wrong and having to discuss things like "quality of life" or "viability". I don't want to do anything that could lead to a doctor advising me to terminate my pregnancy. I don't want to experience any of that as my reality.
If you've got any advice, this is me, as a first-time-almost-Momma, asking for advice from women who've walked this road before.