That being said - you're not going to vote for Donald Trump, are you?
I am a mother of daughters, two sweet little girls who I want to have every opportunity in this world I've brought them into. Therefore, I cannot vote Republican. It's a moral issue. Republicans, the ones who make the laws, at least, do not empower women. I will not vote for one, or for anyone who is pretending to be one.
I believe in science, from climate to reproduction - there are people who go to school for a long time to know a whole lot about that stuff. Republicans, the ones who makes the laws, at least, ignore these people in favor of religion and the alter of the almighty dollars. Therefore, I cannot vote Republican. It's a moral issue.
I said I don't want to talk politics, dammit.
There is so much awfulness in the world. Why do we allow ourselves to be inundated by it?
I'm going to practice keeping myself safe. I think it's going to require stepping away from the internet. Facebook, specifically. Maybe until the election is over? Maybe forever? Maybe for just the next hour?
I have to find a way to not worry about things I cannot control. Syria. Syrian refugees. This fucking shitstorm election. Cops killing brown people for being brown. Homeless people. Broke single mothers. Rich hating the poor. Men hating women. Women hating women. Me learning to hate people I used to respect because they're fucking sheep.
I need to not give the awfulness space in my mind. Andrea told me once, "If I can't do anything about it, I just do not give it any space in my thoughts." I cannot for the life of me figure out how in the fuck that works in actual daily life, but I have to figure it out. The sad seeps into everything.
I am at the top of my game - everything is going my way - and I'm not happy. I don't think it's because I'm doing anything wrong, or because I'm lacking something. I think it's all the noise. I think it's just too much sad and terrible and tragic and awful, and it gets into my brain and I can't shake it. I worry constantly about things I cannot control or fix or help, and I feel guilt and more worry because I cannot fix or help or control those things. Maybe I need a therapist. Hi, person reading my blog. Welcome to my most recent therapy session. Today I'm discussing my particular version of crazy.
I just want to make the world a happier place. A safer place. I just want us to all take care of each other. I don't understand why we're all so afraid of each other. We're all fighting the same battles, trudging through the same trenches. Why do we try to hold our neighbors down? Don't we all rise together?
I don't want this path we're on to be the legacy we're leaving for our children.
That last sentence sounds trite, but I have never written anything with more truth behind it.