Hi Facebook! I've been avoiding you for days now because all of the politics makes me angry and sad and anxious. My brain is quieter now than it has been for weeks, and I haven't dreamed about Donald or Hillary once in the last couple days. But I also missed some great pictures and announcements and opportunities to find out what's going on in the lives of the people I love. But I spent way more time playing with my kids and walking my dog. Why is Facebook so good and bad both at the same time?
I got a new phone. It seems pretty cool, but I'm still really bummed about those lost voice recordings. So incredibly bummed. When Jimi and I first started dating, I had a hard time understanding what he meant when he talked about attachment being the source of all pain, and how as a Buddhist, he strives to let go of attachment. I thought he was just trying to creatively tell me he wanted to hook up with other chicks, but that wasn't the case. He was talking real deep stuff, and while I can grasp the idea and concept, I'm really really bad at the practice and application of avoiding attachment to things. I catch myself thinking about those lost singalongs with my sweet girl, and I get so deeply sad knowing I'll never hear them again... I have to remind myself that I enjoyed them in the moment, and again later the times I listened to them or played them for others, and it's okay that they're gone. I have her, we will sing so many more songs together. We will tell so many more stories. I shouldn't waste those potential moments mourning moments that are already over.
I read too much Facebook. It's still really noisy.
I just decided I really do like my new phone. So at least there's that.