We've reached "full term", and now it's just a matter of when she decides to make her appearance. Her nursery is nearly complete, she has teeny tiny onesies and socks folded and matched and put away into dresser drawers, we have diapers that will fit her teeny tiny newborn bottom. I have a pretty good idea of what's going into my hospital bag, but I've not packed it yet; maybe I should get on that, eh? (I have the important stuff set aside and ready - stool softeners. Post-birth poo is no joke, from what I hear.)
We had two baby showers this past weekend - one Friday night thrown by Jimi's co-workers, and another Saturday afternoon hosted by my family. Both were lovely and netted us some awesome gifts to help welcome our new arrival. Maggie came down for the family shower and brought the burp cloths she made after the shower she hosted for us a few weeks back - looking through the messages and pictures from our friends made me teary-eyed all over again.
I feel very loved right now. I feel like I'm caught up in a net of love and happy and warm and cozy and safe and good. I've had a life full of happy and love, but I don't remember ever feeling quite so filled to the brim with good things. It's a great place to be, my world is these days, and knowing it's only going to get better with this baby's arrival is more than I can comprehend.
I was very disappointed at my midwife appointment yesterday to learn that I've tested positive for Group B Strep. I'd really hoped to avoid that, and learning that I'm a carrier has bummed me out. My midwife was very good about explaining it all to me in detail, since I'd not bothered to do any previous research on it (hoping it wouldn't apply to me), and basically this means I've got to get to the hospital within 4 hours of my water breaking or when contractions (pressure waves) are 6-7 minutes apart rather than 3-5 minutes apart so I can have at least two rounds of IV antibiotics before baby girl is born. I'd hoped to spend most of my early labor at home, but now we'll be heading out quite a bit sooner than I'd planned. Fortunately, I was reassured that I can still move around and get in the tub, etc. while hooked to the IV, so I won't be strapped to a bed. It's all going to be fine, just a bit of a change in my gameplan. Whatever - I'd even take being strapped to a bed if it meant getting my daughter here safely.
Perhaps it was psychosomatic, but within an hour of leaving the midwife's office, I started to feel sickly. It got worse as the night progressed, with my throat getting more and more sore each time I woke for my hourly bathroom trip/flip to the other side. I called my doctor's office before 9 a.m., hoping he'd be able to prescribe something to head off whatever it was trying to take hold of my body. I'm usually a "wait three days and see" before calling the doctor sort of gal, but being within 2 weeks of my due date was enough catalyst to get my butt in gear immediately this time. They were able to fit me into a slot that'd been reserved for a patient who'd done a no-show, but when the strep culture came back negative, the doc was sort of stuck on what to do for me. In the end, I came home with a $50 Tamiflu script, just in case it's the flu. I've since decided it's most likely a sinus infection, but I'm taking the Tamiflu anyhow - just in case, and because I paid $50 for it. I went back to work after my visit, but came home around 1 and slept until it was time to pick up Jimi from work. It's 8:30 now, and I'll probably be in bed in the next 30 minutes or so - I want as much rest as possible, to give my body a chance to fight this off quickly. I don't want to be nine and a half months pregnant and sick. I especially don't want to be in labor and sick. Immune system, don't fail me now!
There are a million other words to say. I'll get to them all eventually. For now, though, Momma's tired.
I'm sending you all my positive good vibes (praying). My daughter was perfect. She was due Christmas day. I had a 102 fever at 9 months, lost 10 pounds.... so sick I didn't even go to my OB.... I tried to drive but the windows fogged up from the fever and I had to turn around. Two small boys. Husband gone. No family to turn for help. I made it through that shit and so will you.ReplyDelete
YOU ARE ONE SPECIAL WOMAN, strong inside and out. Any minute now that daughter will be here and what joy, life will never be the same. Jim will be the most loving daddy...This little girl will be the gift of the most special love between two people.