I'm so damned impressed by these kids in Florida. I hope they change the world. I'm trying to convince Jimi we need to go to Washington DC in March. I may just go by myself.
Arctic ice is melting. Russia totally fucked up our last election. More people died because someone's feelings were hurt. Are we great again?
So many complicated thoughts. So many things to worry about. My kids ate cupcakes at 8:30 tonight. WTF?
But. Mountain pose. Pay attention to your breath. Be in the moment. Calm. Steady.
It isn't all bad. There's Sheli and Dot. And Mom. And Jimi and those sweet babies who love you so much. And the puppy and the kitty. Life is sweet and good.
And Sheli made sables and I brought some home. I'm going to eat one now. One of the ones with strawberry jam, because those are amazeballs.
The world is really fucking scary. There are lots of bad things happening every day. Remember to look for the helpers.
Dot moved her momma into her home tonight. Her momma took a train all the way from Oregon to Chicago, then she and Dot's sister rented a car and drove down, but there were lots of roadblocks and hiccups along the way, so they arrived about 24 hours later than originally planned. But there was Dot, with a smile and a hug, and a warm healthy dinner, and a houseful of beloved friends, to welcome her momma home. She's a real helping helper. It warms my heart to think of her selflessness in this - the work she put into making sure her mom's room was just right, the details she watched. She's a good woman. I hope her momma can feel the love tonight.
Geneva did not get into the school we wanted her to get into. Knee jerk reaction from me is to look into private schools. I went to my 20 year high school reunion this past weekend, and I had a conversation with an old classmate of mine who is a teacher now. As I found myself in the middle of telling this woman that I think public schools aren't the best choice for my little angels, I realized I'm an asshole. This woman paid thousands and thousands of dollars to go to school for years and years so she could make a barely-livable wage to have the privilege of working in a public school. She's signed up to buy her own work supplies because her employer can't. These days, she's signed up to be an actual human shield should some gun-wielding nut decide to shoot up her school. And she does it happily, because teaching is what she loves. And there I was, saying that wasn't enough. What in the actual fuck, Natalie?
So. Maybe we're going to try out this public school thing. I won't lie, these kids in Florida give me great hope for our future. They are starting a movement. If the Russian trolls are against you, I'm with you. And I'm thinking - if I can find the money for private school, why can't I find that same money to donate to my child's public school? Why can't I help boost their resources, literally put my money where my mouth is? Maybe I can talk to some people and get them to feel the same way. Maybe we can start a thing. Maybe.
I went on a tear this weekend - I believe the issue of school shootings is absolutely a gun issue, BUT, if you don't, that's cool. If it's an education thing, let's fund the shit out of our public schools and give teachers and counselors the tools they need to educate and support and guide our children. If it's a mental health thing, let's fund health programs and make mental health services readily available for everyone. If it's a parenting issue, let's fund family leave policies so parents can attend to the individual needs of their children without fear of losing their jobs and/or going bankrupt.
There has to be an answer. If we are the greatest nation on Earth, we can find a way to stop these massacres. Doing nothing is not an answer, and it's not okay. I think we're seeing the beginning of a movement that will make something happen. I have hope.
When Trump was elected, my Daddy told me, "The US has survived things far worse than Donald Trump." True. But he's still pretty fucking bad. The indictments that came out this past weekend show that Russia was actively working to get him elected because they believe that was literally the best way they could hurt America. Our sitting President was elected by people swayed by Russians trying to harm our country. That's a pretty fucking big deal.
I'm waiting for the leaders to emerge - the ones who lead the charge of infuriated and outraged Americans who demand justice for our democracy. Surely we have elected someone to a higher office who is up to this task?